I'm being honored for my writing tomorrow

I'm getting an award for my writing tomorrow, for a contest I won for the local city's art commission. It was a short story I submitted, and it took first place.

Well, the banquet function is tomorrow, and while I should be excited, I'm not really. You see, I kind of assumed I'd have a partner by now, or at least a significant other (even if I was the only one who considered us significant). But it hasn't worked out that way. I'm currently being considered by a woman who I'm not really sure is all that interested in me. Granted, she's interested is the fact that I'm a service submissive, but I sometimes wonder if I'm just interchangeable with anyone else, when it comes to our lack of a relationship. I know I've been busy, but at the same time it seems that this really isn't developing, and to be honest, I really don't know what to do about it because I've tried talking about it before, but it's one of those things that you really don't get further on while trying to talk about it.

So, I'm going to this awards ceremony alone, and while the life of a writer can sometimes be that way, I just somewhat expected something would be different by now.